So I am sure everyone is waiting on the edge of their seat with anticipation about what else we did this summer!! Well back in April James and I felt strongly about trying to have another baby! This was a pretty big surprise, especially to me, because we hadn't planned on it for several years. (Having 3 kids in 2.5 years will make you feel that way!) But when your husband who has sworn off children forever tells you we need another one- YOU LISTEN!! Who knows if he will ever say it again! Don't scare the "feeling" away! So about 3 months after deciding to try we found out at the end of July we were expecting! We were thrilled! We couldn't wait to tell our families and share in this joy of expanding our family once again! We had 3 very healthy pregnancies so we felt insensible that anything but a healthy pregnancy would occur. The pregnancy was going great. I wasn't sick AT ALL!! Which was really weird for me because with the others I was pretty sick pretty early! In fact it was going so well, I never really felt pregnant. James would ask me, "Why are you not excited?" I would tell him of course I was excited, but just don't feel like I am pregnant. One night I felt a few cramps and actually looked up signs of a miscarriage, I then felt I was just being paranoid and went to sleep. I got up the next morning, got everyone ready and was about to leave on a walk with the kids. I then discovered some spotting and knew right away what had happened. I called my mom when I couldn't get a hold of James and she comforted me. James eventually came home and we went to the doctor to confirm our knowledge of the miscarriage. Our hearts were broken, but we knew we didn't want to sit around the house all day in self wallowing. We have so many things to be grateful for we thought it would be wise to dwell on those things instead. So we packed up the kids and went to Cherry Hill amusement park for the rest of the day and enjoyed the wonderful children we do have! It helped heal our hearts and spirits.
We are obviously sad we don't have a baby on the way, but we can see the blessings we have received through this. We are okay! We understand God's has an individual plan for us. Heavenly Father will send us more children on His time and not our! (We should have learned that lesson from the first 3!) This experience has helped us count our blessings and truly empathize with those who have had similar sufferings. Our family is a gift from our loving Heavenly Father and I hope to never take that for granted again!
Here are my youngest at Cherry Hill: (James was taking Carlyle on one more slide when these were taken.)
On a happier note... we got to spend a week with our nieces! We had so much fun with them here, while Ashley prepared for her new little baby to come! We were honored to have them and hope it helped give her a small break to rest before she brought her newest addition home. We went to the movies and the park and played played played the whole 5 days! It was nice to have some individual bonding time with these 2 cute little ladies!
Here are some pics of the fun week we had:
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